Friday, June 6, 2014

Three little words that changed my life forever

Carrie ~ one week old
In my dreams you are still a little girl who looks up to me. You are small enough to have to reach upward to hold my hand, and I have to bend down to kiss your sweet cheek.

In my dreams it is still my sole responsibility to ensure your happiness and well-being; to come to your rescue when you are in need, and to wipe away your alligator tears. In my dreams I still hold you in my arms and rock you to sleep.

But I am wide awake now, and I see you stand before me in a grown up body. I see you making decisions for yourself and living your life in a way that amazes me and makes me proud to know you. I am awake and I am learning that I can't always ensure your happiness and well-being, and that's a really hard habit to break.

I am awake now and I know that you don't always want me to tell you want I think. You don't always want to hear how I would do things differently, and you rarely ask for my advice. I am awake and I see that you are capable of doing anything you set your mind to, without my help.

There are days I want to fall asleep and dream those sweet dreams again; to feel your tiny hand in mine and hear you call me Mommy once again. But we're awake now, both of us. Things are different, and I just couldn't be more proud of you, Carrie.

Those three little words that changed my life forever?
"It's a girl."
Happy birthday to my best friend, soul sister, and amazing daughter, Carrie. I am so honored to know and love you on this journey. xo

21 comments:

Jo said...

Such a lovely post. I have the same dreams and the same waking moments too x

Becky said...

Lovely post and wonderful photo. Hope that you have a fantastic time celebrating today xx

debs14 said...

What a lovely post. They'll always be our babies! X

Stephanie @ La Dolce Vita said...

Happy Birthday to your sweet girl! I loved this sweet post. Makes me want to hug my own baby girl right now (... and just a week until she turns 14 Deb! sigh ...)

Kristi Jean D said...

Such a lovely post! I cried. Happy birthday, Carrie.

scrappyjacky said...

A lovely post....hope Carrie has a wonderful day.

Lin Chao said...

So Sweet, so touching and so true... Happy Birthday to your litter girl - Carrie. Have Fun and have each other always

P.S. - Do not tell J that I used three "so" in one sentence.

Helen Philipps said...

Such a sweet post and lovely photo, Deb. (Just catching up here with your lovely blog.) Happy Birthday to Carrie (she will always be your baby, just as my grown girls will both always be mine!)
Happy weekend.
Helen xox

Susi said...

Lovely post! Happy Birthday Carrie! Enjoy!

Amy said...

That is such a beautiful photo and a moving post today Deb - Happy Birthday to your girl :)

Karen said...

What an amazing post! Happy Birthday, Carrie!

Gail said...

What a lovely post Deb and Happy Birthday to Carrie. I hope she has a great day.

Ruth said...

A beautiful post to go with a gorgeous photo.

Alison said...

A lovely post De...hope Carrie had a lovely birthday...and I know exactly what you mean about wanting to protect them forever!
Alison xx

Margaret said...

So beautiful. Happy birthday, Carrie.

Irene said...

Such lovely words to your daughter. Happy Birthday Carrie!

Maria Ontiveros said...

What a lovely post and beautiful picture. I remember rocking my kids to sleep in a rocking chair as some of the best moments in life.
Rinda (who's driving to Oregon in the morning to pick up her baby from college!)

Sian said...

Aw, how very lovely! It's a gorgeous picture. I hope Carrie had a fantastic birthday

Audrey said...

Oh my goodness, that photo!!! I know you cherish that. You guys are so adorable. Happy, Happy Birthday to you, Carrie... XOXO

Miriam said...

What a truly lovely post. I have the same dream Deb. Happy Birth day to you both, even if a week late.

Venessa Winiesdorffer said...

Woah! I made the blog! I feel special! And had so much fun celebrating daughter!♡♡♡ #deb&daughteraremyfavs #arehashtagsallowedhere

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