I thought I'd wait about uploading them until I wasn't feeling so sad, but I'm not sure when that will be. And I struggled with that because I knew the longer I waited, the harder it would be. Plus, I needed to get it over with so I could get that off my mind.
I sat down on Monday night and got it over with. And you know what? It wasn't so bad. There was a photo of my mom and sister - one that my mom insisted that I take. Mom looks very ill in the photo, but she is smiling a sweet, happy smile. It took me back to the afternoon that my sister and I spent with our mom, when she was still feeling well enough to have a conversation. Yes, Mom was sick, but she was genuinely happy to be chatting with her daughters, and her expression makes that very clear.
I didn't take many photos while I was in California last week. I typically come back from a weekend with my family and have at least 200 photos. This recent visit spanned the course of 10 days, and I only had 56 photos. And what I expected to be a really sad review from our trip, turned out to be a very uplifting photo collection of faces of the people I love so much. It totally lifted my spirits!
So, about this break from blogging; I'm not sure how that looks right now. I'm realizing that blogging feeds my soul and maybe, just maybe, it's just what this heartache needs. Plus, I need to make something crafty and I think that will be a really nice break for all of us!